'Time will heal' is a common phrase we hear when we get wounded. But does time actually heal a wound?
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Even Adele in her song ‘Hello’, said, "They say that time's supposed to heal ya, but I ain't done much healing."
Time numbs our pain, it doesn't heal it. Time is like anaesthetics injected in a patient's body before surgery in order to feel no pain.
So if time doesn't heal, then what does?
The Greek word for forgive is Aphiemi meaning to set free, to let go, or to release.
I was thinking about why we find it difficult to forgive those who have wronged us and I came to the conclusion that forgiveness is a contradiction to our human nature. In a sense, forgiveness doesn’t serve justice. Because in our human understanding justice is making the person pay the price.
Let me clarify what I mean by that statement. In our (sinful) nature, we lean towards getting revenge. We want them to drink from the same bitter cup, but triple the bitterness, so they really taste what it's like. We refuse to forgive because they don't 'deserve it'. Because we don't think it's fair.
It is even harder to forgive someone who never apologized.
C. S. Lewis in his book, 'Mere Christianity' wrote,
"Forgiveness is a lovely idea until he as something to forgive."
I have several stories about forgiveness to share, but they won’t fit in this blog. Hopefully, you’ll read them in a book I will write one day, eventually. That day could be anywhere between now and 20 years … hehe.
But I will summarize these stories into one concept. Throughout the past 5 years, I was hurt by the closest and dearest people to me and I never received an apology. In fact, I had nothing but hate and bitterness towards them.
My mind turned into a battlefield. I refused to forgive them and the grudge I held felt far too heavy. You know, it’s not about how far you can carry on the grudge, it’s about the consequences that follow.
It can leave marks on us too.
What happens when we carry something heavy for too long? We become exhausted.
I was exhausted too. The grudge I held only weighed me down.
No, time didn’t help. Time can help us get over it temporarily. But the moment you come in contact with the person that hurt you, your brain lifts the tonearm, moves it to the edge of the vinyl, slowly put the arm down and play old memories for you.
The reason we rely on time is that it’s comforting and non-confronting. We don’t need to make any effort to show grace.
In a sermon I heard once, the preacher shared a profound concept
“If I remain angry, then I have no room in my mind to find fault in myself.”
It’s easier to remain hurt and angry because then we won’t have to confront our self.
We tend to think that our unwillingness to forgive is serving us justice. But how does that genuinely make you feel? Do you feel true peace or is it anger that’s comforting you?
It’s important to remember that when we don’t set someone free, we carry their burden with us everywhere we go. We become chained to them.
Forgiveness isn’t pretending the pain doesn’t exist (denial). Forgiveness isn’t a word we say, it’s an action we take. It’s allowing Grace to change our heart.
An unforgiving heart is a troubled heart. Often times we look for a detour, so we decide to cover it with a bandaid and move on. How about treating the wound? What if bandaid isn't enough to heal the wound?
To be fair, some things are harder to forgive than others. Every wound has its depth.
But if we’re honest, there are times where we waste thoughts, time and energy holding a grudge on something that’s not even worth a second thought.
As a Christian, I am reminded of God's undeserving and unconditional love and forgiveness.
And yes, I said it – undeserving – because the truth is we are nothing. It’s only by God’s love, grace and mercy that we are something.
The work of the cross is incredible. It's too magnificent for any human to comprehend. I love how Jesus didn't change his mind, I mean he could have, but he didn’t. And I never get that part.
Luke 23:24 quotes Jesus as He hung on the cross, “And Jesus said, Father, forgive them, for they know not what they do.”
Father, forgive them
Forgive them.
Forgive.
He loved us so much that He paid the price for our sins. He forgave us . . . and no, he didn’t forgive us because someone apologized to him on our behalf, he chose forgiveness.
Romans 5:8 tells us that “…while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.”
While.
If there is one thing I’ve learned throughout the years is this:
It’s only when we acknowledge (receive) the forgiveness that’s been given to us is when we are able to (give) forgive others.
God’s grace is power. It’s in God’s grace that we’re able to forgive. It’s in His grace we find the strength to release and let go, to drop the baggage and set ourselves and others free.
Forgiveness is not an act of weakness. It never was. It was an act of love.
As we’ve come to the end of this blog, I would like to conclude it by asking you one simple question: Are you healed or just distracted?
The choice is yours.