I've stopped writing?

Wait, what?

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If you read my blogs regularly, you may notice it has been a while since my last blog. I admit, not a fan of the gap I’ve created.

To be honest, I am not sure how this blog will end up.

I know what I want to write about, but since I haven't written a blog in ages, I hope I convey the idea of this blog accurately.

I remember when I first started writing blogs for Chosen, I would get excited every time I published a piece of writing.

I also feel like I used to practise descriptive writing more often than I do now. I would try my best to convey a certain feeling to my readers. In a way, there used to be a greater sense of passion in my writing.

But now, things have changed. The way I think and approach things has changed. I am in a different state of mind – which is an improvement I am proud of.

I have noticed I struggle to write blogs now. And I think there are few reasons for it. Firstly, if you didn’t already know, I’m studying journalism. Blog and journalism writing are completely different. In journalism, you have to be balanced, fair and accurate in everything you write. In blogs, you tend to be creative, inspiring and personal. Secondly, I used to be in a different (overwhelming) state of mind and my emotions were a huge part of it. I tend to be more expressive through writing when I feel ‘disconnected’ from the world or experience a roller coaster of emotions. Thirdly, I have become too critical of what I write, thanks journalism!

It is somehow all connected.

Are you sick of reading the word journalism yet?

My brain has currently been approaching critical thinking more than creative thinking. I even find it difficult to wander through my imagination.

I just feel like I used to find it much easier to be expressive through writing. Now I analyse every single thought and emotion before I write it down, which then leads me to eliminate most of what I thought or felt. Which I think, is the opposite of being ‘personal’.

Does this make any sense?

And as I mentioned before, I’m more in control of how I feel now and the way I react to things – in my head. And so, I tend to ‘get over it’ quicker and move on. Which then doesn’t leave an effect on me to dwell on it for a longer time – which in that stage – would lead me into writing about it.

I do realize I have to distinguish between the two different types of writing – blog and journalism (I just wanted to mention it again) – and need to upgrade my game.

No, I will not stop writing blogs. And this blog site will continue to grow.

It is quite daunting to keep a balance between these two worlds, but I’m trying my best.

I just wanted to get this off of my chest, and I’m glad I did.

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